No place like home

They say there's no place like home. And obviously it takes being away from home to realise that. I've been gone from home for two weeks. I just got back and now I want to leave again. It's not like I went anywhere fun and exciting I just went to a friends. Whenever I'm here I get this feeling of loneliness like there's something missing in my life. Well I guess it's because I want someone to love me. I mean of course my family loves me and I have friends who care about me but I want something greater than that. Gosh even as I'm saying this I feel stupid. I know I'm not supposed to care about this stuff since I'm only 15 but ,you know, everyone wants to be loved whether they want to admit it or not. I just hate saying to people "Man I want a boyfriend." because that sounds so desperate. I don't want people to think I'm pethetic and needy I just hate being alone. It sucks.

What time is it??

Okay so i started a post yesterday but then i clicked on something and all was lost. And then today I slept until 8 at night. I don't know how I did it but i did. And I was starving. But in good news I get to go camping for the next 4 days. I leave tomorrow for viking lake and then when I come back on Sunday I'm leaving again with my two bestest friends in the world :). Even though one drives me completely insane I still love her and am excited to hangout with her. In more bad news I know I wont to get to see Alan at all this summer; I get this pang in my stomach, and well it really sucks. Is it possible to miss someone that you never really got to know? Well i was actually planning on getting to know him next year but I'm not sure if I can wait until the next school year.